Republican Harrison

running downhill is markedly different than running uphill. downhill has it's obvious facility: a faster, easier quick-fix. however, uphill's plight makes for much better blood motion, therefore a better reason for being out in the first place. a difficult path brings greater rewards afterward. i used to think this was true as an analogy to life; i tend to purposefully put myself in varied situations in order to then reap the benefits of such diversity, such environmental weight to keep my mind moving. i now think that people keep themselves comfortable in order to keep grips on sanity, a better position from which to stabilize growth through controlled interaction, basing such branches off of one's own particular comfort level. i learned to list these modified behavior techniques, and have now thus unlearned, forgot, misplaced many now-foreign objects in the mind. i now prefer to stay in, when i go out i jog downhill but quickly turn around to run uphill. the feeling is killed when i know i must stop, wind down, walk with high knees, stretch, again stop moving. this is replacement for a blog i almost started as a running journal, to myself via the internet. these words are replacement for meaningful social conversation, replacement for not keeping up on phone calls to people, to myself via the internet.

a woman recently asked if i'd ever believed in santa claus, the tooth fairy. i said that, perceptibly, i used to believe, when i was much younger, then i got really drunk in high school, and now i'm older and i don't believe. a much simplified story, but it makes sense to me at this moment.